It is one of those days when to every thing all what I say is Bah! Humbug! For those of you who do not understand the meaning of it, as per Wikipedia, "its present meaning as an exclamation is closer to 'nonsense' or 'gibberish'". Most famously it was used repeatedly in "A Christmas Carol" of Charles Dickens by a grouchy old man name Ebeneezer Scrooge. At the end of this tale, however, he becomes a happy generous man after he has been visited by three Christmas ghosts. That was his story. However, as far as mine is concerned, seems like I will stay grouchy a bit longer than one night.
We humans are so thankless and pathetic, we like to dwell in our misery I suppose. Equating even the most wonderful things and people around us to 0 and holding on tight to the feelings of self pity. Though perhaps I am quite conscious of the fact that self pity is one of the worse forms of self indulgence and selfishness, however, sometimes, its really hard to get oneself out of that state of mind. Sense of non-accomplishment, perhaps whose main reason is my own laziness, sense of mundanety and boredom, which is again due to me and every stupid thing like that, as a constant thought sits on one's brain like a snake which has its jaws penetrated inside me and whose venom has spread so much that I am unable to break myself free from these feelings.
Numerous movies have been made on this self indulgent pity with either of two endings. One that the hero breaks free from this sad feelings and redeems himself and his lost happiness. Another is that he falls deeper and deeper into it and ultimately falls to his destruction. Lets see what the future holds for me. Perhaps with the support network that i have, I might reach the first ending rather than the second. :) <- O look! a tiny smile is already starting to appear.
We humans are so thankless and pathetic, we like to dwell in our misery I suppose. Equating even the most wonderful things and people around us to 0 and holding on tight to the feelings of self pity. Though perhaps I am quite conscious of the fact that self pity is one of the worse forms of self indulgence and selfishness, however, sometimes, its really hard to get oneself out of that state of mind. Sense of non-accomplishment, perhaps whose main reason is my own laziness, sense of mundanety and boredom, which is again due to me and every stupid thing like that, as a constant thought sits on one's brain like a snake which has its jaws penetrated inside me and whose venom has spread so much that I am unable to break myself free from these feelings.
Numerous movies have been made on this self indulgent pity with either of two endings. One that the hero breaks free from this sad feelings and redeems himself and his lost happiness. Another is that he falls deeper and deeper into it and ultimately falls to his destruction. Lets see what the future holds for me. Perhaps with the support network that i have, I might reach the first ending rather than the second. :) <- O look! a tiny smile is already starting to appear.
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